What if the watermelon wasn’t just food… but a portal?
Welcome to Day Two
my journey through the simulation
Where I’m no longer just battling cravings, but decoding the very system that created them.
After surviving Day One’s never-ending hydration loop and emotional nacho flashbacks, I woke up on Day Two thinking I had broken through something. I was wrong. I didn’t wake up at all. Instead, I fell deeper into the dream within the dream.
That’s where Still Dreaming (I Think?) begins….
🍉 The Court of Cravings
In the early hours, I found myself trapped in the Watermelon Limbo Court, a Matrix-inspired nightmare where Judge Juicy (yes, the watermelon had a British accent and a powdered wig) read me the charges:
- 1,327 counts of snack sabotage
- Excessive emotional ice cream intake
- Crimes against portion control
The jury? A box of donuts, a smug slice of pizza, and a jar of Nutella that’s seen some things.
I tried to plead guilty-but-charming, but the verdict was clear:
“To wake up, you must surrender your comfort.”
🧠 The Mind Trap
Day Two wasn’t just a food cleanse—it was a mind cleanse.
A showdown between my cluttered, snack-programmed subconscious and a glimpse of true clarity.
I started meditating. My stomach heckled me.
I fought cravings like they were agents in suits, chasing me down alleys of nostalgia and convenience.
And at the center of it all… was a choice.
🟦 Take the Blue Pill: Scroll, snack, snooze, repeat.
🔴 Take the Red Pill: Eat watermelon, face yourself, piss freedom.
I chose the red. Again.
🎭 Still Dreaming (I Think?)
This day was a turning point.
I started to see the code: How fast food chains market addiction as happiness.
How late-night cravings aren’t hunger—they’re escape hatches.
How the system profits when we feel powerless, bloated, and ashamed.
But not today.
Today I became the captain.
Of my cravings. My choices. My mind.
🧃 The Takeaway
This blog post isn’t about watermelon.
It’s about waking up inside the system that made you forget you had a choice.
You’re not fluffy. You’re not broken. You’re free.
You’re not a program. You’re not your cheat day.
You are the glitch in the gut-trix.
So if you’re reading this, and you’re halfway through your own spiral—maybe it’s time you asked yourself:
“Am I awake… or just really full?”
JOURNAL NOTES
🗓️ Day Two
Title: The Phantom Craving
📍 Location: My body, my mind, and somewhere between dreams and hydration
🕡 First Bite: 6:45 AM
🎯 Goal: Let the body speak. Let the melon answer.
Entry:
Woke up earlier than usual today — 6:45 AM — not to the sound of an alarm, but to a whisper from somewhere deep inside.
A craving.
Not the usual kind of craving. Not for junk. Not for coffee.
This one was pure. Watermelon.
Was it thirst? Hunger? Healing? I couldn’t tell.
But it felt… right. Like my body was either thanking me or begging me to keep going.
There was a strange sense of clarity — like waking up after a storm has passed and the sky is blue but still unsure if it’s safe to go outside. My body felt lighter, noticeably so. Like something had been lifted. Maybe inflammation? Maybe emotional weight? Who knows — but it felt like progress.
And emotionally? I felt content. But in a confusing, layered way.
Like…
Am I content enough to stop now?
Or is this the kind of contentment that says “Yes — this is working. Keep going.”
As soon as I took that first bite of watermelon, my answer arrived. Not in words, but in sensation — in the way my body relaxed into it.
It was like my cells replied in unison:
“Continue this journey, my friend.
Your body needs it.
Your mind is asking for it.
You already know this — now honor it.”
No clock watching today.
I’ll eat when my body speaks.
And when it does, the melon will be ready.
— Javy
